Ughhhhh!!!!!! Why do I keep making the same mistakes over and over again? I know it makes me feel sick to my stomach every time. Yet I find myself in the same ditch. What tops it off, is each time I fail, I drift further and further away from God. I can’t find the strength to face God. He must be so tired of me.
Have you ever found yourself in this position before? Messed up yet another time and you don’t know what to do. You tell yourself well I don’t want God to think I’m bare-faced so you walk in the other direction, turning your back on the only one who can strengthen or help you. And who do you go to? “A friend” you lay all your burdens on that friend. Who can’t offer any real solution to your problem.
Isn’t it ironic that we say with our mouths that God is our friend but when placed in a situation to prove it, we leave God out of it, pushing Him aside, as if He’s least of our concern? How often do we say God is my refuge and my strength, my strong tower, He is my help and my fortress? Then in the same breath we question and doubt God.
I believe the devil cracks himself up every time we go back on our words. As a matter of fact he eggs us on to leave God out of the equation. He wants us to think that God will banish us forever. Now isn’t the God we serve all-knowing? He knew us before we were formed, He knows our ins and outs, ups and downs. Don’t you think that mistake you made, He knew you would’ve made it? (Hmmm? Something to think about right?) But still God saved you and He’s willing to save you over and over again. He’s not willing that any should perish but that all should have eternal life.
So the next time you find yourself on the floor sinking in your failures, let God be your friend, let Him be your refuge, your strong tower, your helper, your provider. Tell him just what you would have confided in “that friend”. He can actually help you. He’s not your refuge for the strong times but in those times when you have nowhere else to run to, He’s right there. Let’s challenge ourselves today to really make God our friend.